My time

The house that I grew up in, the only house I’d known forever was exposed with only 4 poles holding it together. I felt that way myself, tread lightly I don’t have much holding me up. Dad was focused, never seen him so focused before. He didn’t want to talk, just work. He ripped through the entire house and completely remodeled it. He needed something to keep him busy, take his anger out on, and then redesigned it the way he wanted it. He did just that, it turned out a lot better and he was able to sell it years later. 

With all this going on, I still keep my mothers secret, but remember I only got “four poles, maybe only two” now keeping me together. Well, that is when my Aunt Courtney, my mothers younger sister, decided to help our relationship, but ending up opening “Pandora’s box”. Courtney hated seeing us argue or completely ignore each other, or rather me ignoring my mother. She called a Relay For Life meeting, our fundraising group for Courtney’s cancer. I was naïve and went not realizing all who weren’t invited, it was me and my mother. 

They ended up blocking me and my mother in the kitchen with Courtney until we solve our issues. I can’t recall what set me off, something my mother said did it. I erupted on my mother and her infidelities, and everything came out. It’s like I  blacked out or something because all I can recall is yelling at my mother, her smirking and telling me “your dad knew the whole time”. That’s when someone stepped in between us thinking hands were going to start flying. I was the one to leave, I actually ended up at Rod’s house screaming at him for ruining my family and telling his daughter of his infidelities over the years. 

I drove around for a while until Betsy, Courtneys daughter, asked me to come back to her house. I walked in with a fire under my ass, I was pissed and no one could calm me down. That was until I looked at my aunt, she was lost, confused, in denial, didn’t know what to think. She looked up at me and said “tell me everything”.