I do have other peoples concerns about my choices….NO, fuck that.  There’s only one person I have 100% respect for and that’s my dad. So, I called him up, told him I walked out of my bullshit, drama filled, corporate job to peruse Onlyfans full time. Now my dad is just getting the hang of…

So, I cried, I puked, I debated if life was worth this much pain. Then I took a huge hit off my “illegal” cart and put on Imagine Dragons. Again, sounds fucking cheesy, but I felt their music spoke to me, almost like they knew what I was going through. Either way, I picked myself…

While sitting and listening, to get an understanding, I was receiving a  “verbal warning” for my ATTENDANCE and LOW PRODUCTIVITY. I immediately stopped them and restated what they just told me. I said, “well, I‘m not doing this with you (speaking to my manager), this is retaliation and I refuse to continue this with a…

Today Granny, Matt’s grandmother, passed away. He had emailed me about her going on hospice on Saturday. I had thought about going to see her, but he mentioned she wasn’t coherent. I decided my last memories of her were the best memories to have and keep. I like that memories of her were happy, like…

Today I get instructed by my manager about NO OVERTIME. Even though they fired the girl training me, had to take on her responsibilities. Then decided to go ahead and also give me another job that two other people cover, so they can move on to other responsibilities. I question the overtime with my manager…

This mother fucker really knows how to keep me pissed the fuck off.  Why do I still think he can be a friend to me after he’s treated me? How did he become the victim in his head?? He was the one cheating on me for two years with his ex-wife. But I‘m the crazy…

 I finished a book that, again, resonates with me on a different level. “Listen for the Lie” by Amy Tintera, a murder mystery thriller. No, I haven’t killed anyone, no one has died, Yet. At the end of the book, if you haven’t read it stop reading, she points out many big facts that resonates…

The bad part about…well, everything in my life right now, is not knowing anyone around me. I get on Facebook Dating for “causal friendships” and find people are literally only want me for my looks. I have given my number out four times, only “Daddy” has used it to his advantage. The other three try…

I started a new show in Netflix, “The Big C”. It’s only got four seasons, but they did a damn good job of the show. I beinged watched the shit out of it these 6 days off work. Last night I finished it, not realizing it was a full moon. The gist of it is…

I did get a SnapChat from Chad, my cousin, saying that he told my mom to “shut the fuck up”, I couldn’t be more proud! It had nothing to do with Trey, since he didn’t partake in Thanksgiving with my mom. Not sure if he did anything different than sit on the fucking computer all…