My time

Cindy came up to me at work and said, “do you mind not telling anyone yet, I haven’t told my friends”. That’s when I saw Cindy in a different way, and it turned ugly from there. This is the woman that suggested I date her son, now she’s embarrassed because we are having a baby “out of wedlock”. I didn’t take this information lightly, and as she walked down the hallway, I yelled, “Hey, guess what?! I‘m pregnant and Cindy is going to be a grandma.” I couldn’t tell if she heard me or just ignored me, but she didn’t turn around. 

No one was going to tell me anything anymore. I was now a mother and I did what I thought was best for me, not anyone else. I could care less on our image; we were in our twenties and could handle this responsibility. My brother had already had his two girls, from two different women. Something inside me changed while I was pregnant, another fire was lit or something. 

I loved being pregnant, loved feeling him move and grow. I was glowing my entire pregnancy because I was so happy, when Tyler wasn’t ruining it. I was about probably three months along when Tyler got put in jail for again driving on a revoked license. I believe he had to go to jail for 30 days. Those 30 days made me realize how bad Tyler was in drugs. 

I had a visitor at our apartment. A man stood in front of me with a gun pointing at me, at my belly, at my child. I stood there not knowing what to do when our neighbor came to my rescue. The neighbor came down with about five other guys with guns and told the man to leave and to never return. Tyler had asked our neighbor to watch over me while he was in jail. He never mentioned this to me or the fact that people would show up at our apartment looking for money he owed them. 

The apartment was perfect for while I was pregnant, food cravings that is. Across the street from Dairy Queen and you better believe I ate fries and  dipped them in ice-cream almost every day.  It was also down the street from my favorite place for wings. I literally ate wings for breakfast and dinner most days.