Some couples have arguments about the kids, money, or stupid shit. What did we fight about? His ex-wife, nothing more nothing else, just the dumb cunt not leaving us alone.
Mind you, my son left, my niece left, and today Matt and the kids left. I allowed myself to completely depend on a man, trusted that I would be taken care of no matter what.
That wasn’t true and I found out the hard way! Just because someone breaks you, doesn’t give them the right to keep doing it. After writing about my life, I realized I have trauma over and over again. They all have the same thing in common, me putting myself last and allowing myself to be put in that situation.
Once again, here I am in an empty house. This time I‘m completely starting over, not even sure what that looks like. I do know one thing, I‘m no longer forgiving, no longer helping others!
From now on, it’s about me and me only!
I guess you can say I do have a type in men, addicts. Tyler is a drug addict, Dave was an alcoholic, and Matt is addicted to his manipulative narcissistic ex-wife.
Matt may or may not know he manipulated me. For example, I explained that he was just like the others, making me have to leave him. Meaning, I had to make the decision to leave and not want to. I have had to do that with every man I was in love with, Tyler, Dave and now Matt. They weren’t in a position to be in a relationship and instead of walking away, or get the help they needed, they stay and torture me. They knew their issues, I told them and also tried to help them.
None of them took the effort to try, they talked the talk but wouldn’t walk the walk.
My time 
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