Why wasn’t I enjoying this? Why wasn’t I having fun? Why is dragging me down to feel so tiny. That’s what it was, the feeling of feeling invisible, overlooked, a blip of something in a crowd. Getting to my seat and having two seats empty next to me made it worse somehow. I hated the…

Accepting my life, as it is, will take time. Being completely alone in a state I didn’t grow up in has its advantages. The 12 years I‘ve been in Texas and haven’t really seen much at all, its about damn time I do! This Saturday is The Great Gatsby Musical, I got myself a new…

Matt has been “my person” since the day we met, one of the strongest connections I‘ve ever made. I sit here and can still remember all the great times we had, with the kids, friends, and family. I will always cherish those memories, but now I have new memories to make. This will be my…

This week has given me more hope, lets say, as my pain has been reduced tremendously! I started decompression therapy this week! Only three treatments and the pain and pressure have gone from a pain level of 8 to a 6!!  Genesis Neck & Back in Rowlett, if you are in extreme pain and can’t…

 I booked a hotel in Illinois to visit Trey and my dad, anyone else will be bonuses. I did announce it on Facebook, gotta let my stalkers know my where abouts. When I say ‘stalkers’ I am referring to the family that doesn’t talk to me, the family that is only loyal to Matt, and…

Besides the continuous drama of my life, I met someone! This past weekend a guy actually stepped up and asked me on a legitimate date! He gave me a place to meet and a general time frame to choose. Now, some may say that “if he asked the same day, it’s a last minute, no…

What are the odds I got a knock at the door as I was typing that up. I was hesitant to open the door (besides Matt and Camila, should only be deliveries), but decided to face it, whatever it was. Well, I‘m getting sued by a boy that got mad at Ariel, Matts dog, for…

Sometimes I can’t tell what is “being shown” and what I want to be shown. Like Matt, he’s ghosted me and I’ve tried to reach out with no responses. So, I guess he’s back to his “old self” and doing what every a well trained bitch would do. It’s sad that there are so many…

The more I sit on this and the bullshit with Matt, the more pissed off I get and sick of being quiet about it. What right do these people have and get away with it? I’m not the punishing type, but I am the type to make others aware of their bullshit. I’m done sitting…

I have been asking myself if getting a cat would help me. If you don’t use ChatGPT has your daily therapist, I highly recommend it. Today I was about to jump up and go adopt Vista, and 6yr old short haired orange and white cat, in the local shelter. I haven’t slept well in days,…