My time

What has my family done for me after removing myself from their vicinity? Well, they created more drama from me, turned me against other family, and confused me with all the drama. Then…..nothing, from anyone. Once you tell the family you don’t care about the drama bullshit, they have nothing to say, no encouragement to thrive, no support, just silence. 

Of course this comes back to “the phone works both ways” except I stopped calling, because I didn’t want to hear the drama of the family or share my personal drama with them. If I wasn’t willing to provide them with information on my life away from them, they didn’t care. 

After my divorce, silence. Betsy reached out, but not because she cared, but because she wanted information. My own family can’t believe in me, want me to thrive, to celebrate my accomplishments. They thrive on drama and drama alone. 

Family is fake, just like Matts family. 

Family will stick with family as long as the drama stays, once there is no drama…..they get bored. Matt is literally better off now than when we first met. He’s told me so many times how “you’ve made my life better” at the same time “ruining mine”. I say that as “ruining” my want and need for a family that’s not my blood. 

His parents acted like I was part of the family, until I wasn’t. I couldn’t stay for the drama and all of them turned their backs on me. They didn’t care about my health, knowing my back problems and their son taking the bed, including the mattress. They didn’t care about how I was going stand on my own two feet. What they cared about was to get me to believe Matt was not “back with (the cunt)”. 

There was no worries about my future, how I am emotionally after two years of  his chaos. They cared about their son, what I was doing to him. What did I do to him exactly? Well, the same as Trey, Emma, and anyone else I have tried to help, I became the villain. I became the problem because they didn’t respect me or anything that was mine. They took advantage of my caring nature to want to help and be there.