My time

Matt has “finally been able to understand where I come from as an empath, feeling everyone else’s emotions and absorbing their negativity”. He’s pointed out that after we spent the night together “you’re physically exhausted, I can tell by looking at you”. He pointed out that he feels  that I might be absorbing his negativity that he absorbed from work, family, life, etc. Now he’s worried he’s bringing me down and here I am having the perfect day, with perfect weather, and a perfect attitude. 

Maybe that is the reason we feel this pull towards each other. Maybe when he finally controls the positive vibes around him, we can truly see what this is. I truly think everyone has connections to people, some weak, some strong. Matt and I are both empaths, we could be trauma bonded, or he could be “my person”, or my best friend. I am willing to enjoy time together and watch him go through all the emotions of his foreseeable future. 

I can say “future” because he’s right back to where he was when we met, over two years ago. He put himself, with her manipulation black window voodoo, in this position again and I’m not here to be his hero, or his partner, I’m only here to enjoy our time, let him lean on me when needed. This is what I did for my dad as well, but this time I was way too invested at the wrong time.