My time

I’ve had a lot of “wrong time” moments, first one comes to mind is Tyler. Wrong time for Tyler, perfect time for me. Next is Mr. Big…remember him. I didn’t get into it much cause it still kinda hurts, even after all these years. I’m sitting here not knowing where to start. Maybe I will reach out, I guess that’s my start! Nervous is what I feel, anxiously waiting for a reply. 

Next wrong timing would be Aaron, I saw a part of him that scared me from letting it go any further. I even lied to my husband about him, not sure why. At the time Aaron was good friends with my dad. That should tell you what time of person he is, cause dad doesn’t make many friends, and definitely never making new friends. Dad likes his little circle of life, safe, predictable, structured in a way he enjoys. Accepting Aaron as a friend, and still does today, shows me what I needed to know about Aaron. 

Anyways, Aaron was bad timing in a sense I couldn’t see myself staying close to family. Knowing both our families live in the general area, I couldn’t accept staying if I didn’t have to. Knowing me, I’m surprised I didn’t just to make him happy, not even knowing if he felt anything for me at all. We both agreed it was a good night, something to remember, but no expectations of anything else. So, I kept my options open, pushed myself to meet new people, and be open to possibilities I never thought possible. 

Dave was perfect timing, perfect sense of humor Trey and I shared. He fit into our lives like he was meant to be all along. This man, that just happened to live behind me, the man Trey met before me, the man Trey accepted as his father. I truly fell in love with him, head of heals in love, so much that the thought of him saying anything about marriage I wanted to scream “YES” from the highest rooftop. He made me feel like I was his queen, Trey was his son, and we were our own unique way. 

Nothing was ever truly perfect, but for us, I thought we were perfect together. I still can’t tell you where exactly it wall went to shit. It didn’t happen all of a sudden, it happened slowly, slowly getting worse for Trey and Dave. Something happened between them I still don’t think I know exactly what. Dave has ghosted us since the sell of our home.