My time

Sometimes I can’t tell what is “being shown” and what I want to be shown. Like Matt, he’s ghosted me and I’ve tried to reach out with no responses. So, I guess he’s back to his “old self” and doing what every a well trained bitch would do. It’s sad that there are so many people out there allowing other people to manipulate and control them. When is it enough?

There are pros and cons to everything, but staying in a shitty relationship, especially “for the kids”, it completely fucking stupid. Your kids, as I did, will see how miserable you are, and eventually will be just as miserable as you. If the parents can’t get along on a daily basis, the kids see it, feel it, and hate it. I watched it for years and hated it, wanting to get as far away as possible.

Well, another lesson learned, Matt will never come out from under that cunts poisonous manipulation. Which means I have to move on and try to never think about him again. It’s not easy, but nothing has been easy for any of us lately. Another emotional rollercoaster until I can be completely over him, his kids, his family, his friends, etc. I hate that he knows where I live, can show up whenever the fuck he wants, but secretly hoping he does.