My time

I know many people have a belief, many about the Bible, or they called “word of God”. But who the fuck is this God that gave us choices? Who is this “God” that says we can’t be a decent person and not go by “his word”. What’s wrong with doing the “out of the ordinary”? When did we all become this “rule follower” of our own lives?

Everyone has their desires, beliefs, even wants. Who is really around to tell us that sex with multiple partners is wrong? And, Why? Multiple partners gives you experience, every individual is different. For example, Matt is sensitive, wants intimacy, Daddy, magical secret guy, is rough, likes it hard, tight, with no intimacy. 

I’m living for me, not for someone that wrote a book thousands of years ago when women were stoned for their infidelities. Isn’t that because they lied and cheated to get what they desired? What happened to just being honest, open minded, and just down right having fun?

Last night with Matt technically wasn’t the first time having sex with two men in less than 24 hours. The difference this time, I’m madly in love with one and the other is teaching me new things. The time before, I was single and both times were just sex, just fun and nothing more. Honestly, what’s wrong with that?

What happened to “being free” to make your own choices and not have people ridicule you for being honest? I’ve had many friends, or connections, throughout my life. Some of them “work connections”, some “random connections”, some “learning connections”. We all go through life differently, why do we all have to have the same “rules” for our lives?

Maybe that is my problem with “the word of God”. It’s a box people put themselves in to feel protection, reassured, guidelines to live a decent life. Aren’t you bored of that box? Are you curious of the endless possibilities in this world? Stop looking for someone to “follow”, make yourself the leader in your own life.