My time

I’m done fighting the universe on where I need to be. I am where I am today because of the experiences I’ve had, connections I’ve made, the lessons I needed to learn. I am in control of myself, but the universe is more in control of me, I dont control my heart beating, or my lungs to keep breathing. I need to learn that every day is here for me and what I put into it. 

These days feels like I need a break, a timeout, a pause in life. New Years is coming and I have no plans and maybe I will take this time for my pause in life, enjoy just me. Not sure what that looks like, but no one here to tell me what it should look like. Trust is not easy, but I do want so badly to trust the universe, it’s foggy now, but soon the universe will show my next steps if I put trust into it. 

Well, I spent my new years with a strong couple I admire. The beat to their own drum, no judgment of my life or anyone’s, really. This couple were able to sit and talk all night, about nothing and anything with me. We spent hours talking and catching up on our lives. It was nice to be around a strong independent couple that are evolved their lives around work, saving, planning for a future they can’t predict. As soon as we rang in the new year, I was feeling more sick, sinus pressure, sore throat.