My time

I am reaching out hoping to make amends, to rebuild a relationship without Matt being the subject. That didn’t happen, it’s like justifying my actions, when Matt has never justified his. His actions are more acceptable because he was there first. It’s funny how people can point out your faults, but are blind to their own. I just realized I was so involved with Matt and his family, friends, work, etc. that I was left with no one because he never invested in me. 

Yeah, I know, not much to invest in. My son left me, no relationship with my mom or brothers really, no friends made outside of Matt the last two years. The friends I did have, still have, and many never left, all have or want to fuck me. Can men only be loyal to sex? I have no problem having them coming back for more, but why? Some it’s not just sex, its a friendship built off sex, or a friendship with a potential of sex. 

Either way, I get along with men easier than women. Facts, all my women friends live in different states. Chrisitine in Illinois, Jennifer in Oklahoma, and Malea that was in Kentucky now here with me. This could be the worst idea I ever had, or it could help us both in a fucked up situation.

Either way, we will figure it out and go from there. More to come later.