My time

I did get a SnapChat from Chad, my cousin, saying that he told my mom to “shut the fuck up”, I couldn’t be more proud! It had nothing to do with Trey, since he didn’t partake in Thanksgiving with my mom. Not sure if he did anything different than sit on the fucking computer all day. I guess he’s taking after JT, my mothers “husband”. 

Other than the normal drama from my family, I treated it like any other day, besides Daddy. I do feel kinda bad I just up and left without saying goodbye the other day. At the same time, I don’t really because if I had stayed the day would have turned out weird as fuck.

I could feel the emotions getting the best of me and didn’t want to ruin what we had already established. Sex and strictly just sex, or as he likes to call it “friends with benefits”. Which is also fine, cause we do laugh a fuck ton, before, during and after sex. 

It’s a breath of fresh air to be sexually satisfied and to be able to laugh at dumb shit. It’s also hard having that relationship with Daddy, as I had the same laughter with Matt. I wasn’t sexually satisfied, he knew that and tried his best. I guess that’s the difference, Daddy has no one he’s trying to get over, he’s just enjoying what we provide for each other, sexually. 

I kept my word on not depending on anyone emotionally, so far so good. There are times I reach out to Zach, classmate, when I feel emotional and need someone to understand. I feel like Zach kind of understands, in the man sense, definitely not in a woman sense.