My time

All my life I chose people to be in my life, but they never truly chose me. If they did choose me it was for something, never nothing. My son left because he didn’t like my rules. Matt left because he couldn’t love me. It’s not even about love, it’s about caring for someone else to think of them before making decisions. Decisions are what people are afraid of, choosing the wrong decision, choosing the right one but not appreciate it and then lose it. 

Today is thanksgiving and I am thankful for the most caring, selfless, funny, sexy man I’ve only known a week. We met on Facebook Dating, even though my profile specifically says, “causal and friendships only”. I decided a man with so many dogs in his life, he has to be a good person. So, I branched out, letting the universe “take the wheel”. 

I asked if he had plans on a random Sunday while still trying to figure out my feelings about selling my house, or I should say feeling numb about it. I decided I needed a pedicure from my favorite place when he text back inviting to his farm. 

From where I was it was an hour away, so about an hour and a half from my new apartment. As we text and decided we were going to spend time together, I didn’t feel anything but calm. The drive there was gorgeous, middle of the day with a cool breeze, perfect for a drive with the windows down!