I haven’t talked with that family in many years, last I knew they weren’t talking to my mother. Here we are, my family at their best, talking about other peoples lives instead of focusing on their own. People distract themselves with gossip and drama, like Matts owner, the cunt. Keeps you on edge, makes you…

Just like the damn bible, words on paper can still be perceived differently. Just as I write this blog, some people will disagree with my point of view of my life and that’s ok. They had an outsiders view of my life, no one lived it but me. I‘ve been asked “have you considered…” followed…

Poor Matt, and I mean that in the same way when they say “poor Ross” in the TV show “Friends”. Matt is the most caring, sensible, loving, funny, talented man I‘ve probably ever met. He’s extremely smart in many ways, with one exception…narcissistic women. The poor man was trained like a dog for over 15…

Once Matt mentioned it was my birthday they offered a “regular shot” or a “wet shot”. Being the pervert I am, I wanted the “wet shot” not even knowing what it was. The security came and cleared the way, removing people and bar stools away from the bar. Still I’m oblivious to what’s about to…

Yesterday, today nor tomorrow are promised for anyone, make the best of TIME you are given! That’s just what I did this weekend with Matt for my birthday. Saturday was even more perfect than the night before. We took the boat ride through the Riverwalk learning about all sorts of fun facts. The most I…

Matt had called it prior, by 10pm power couple would also leave. I wasn’t convinced of this since the awkwardness just left, they had no reason to leave.  Matt was right, I hear her say “I’m ready to go now” and I look at Matt in shock. How could he have possibly called that? What…

This was the train wreck I never expected but loved watching. The simple woman decides she’s going to sit at the power couple table, without an invite. Her nondrunk man was not having it and refused to indulge in her shenanigans. Just like most woman, she was going to get her drunk way, without his…

Matt and I make our comments about the different people we see, both intrigued by the drunk woman having an attitude with her man. At one point she’s screaming at him “fuck you, go get me my shots”, not caring who’s around to hear it. That poor man eventually gave in and kept getting the…

Soon after midnight, I headed back to my apartment with NyQuil at hand. I slept as much as my body and mind would allow. By Friday, I was still sick but excited I get to spend some time with Matt this weekend for my birthday. I had expectations of going to a musical he had…

I’m done fighting the universe on where I need to be. I am where I am today because of the experiences I’ve had, connections I’ve made, the lessons I needed to learn. I am in control of myself, but the universe is more in control of me, I dont control my heart beating, or my…