We drive the 30 minutes back to my apartment and I can’t stand to be near her after she said nothing to me the whole way. I grab my purse and tell her I’m going back out, I didn’t know if I would be home. I was so mad I couldn’t look at her, I…

I’m in a completely different state of mind, I feel beautiful when I have a great attitude about myself. I don’t need others approval to feel beautiful, I rely on myself to feel beautiful. If I don’t like how I feel, I change my mindset, the only thing I can actually control. I can’t control…

Well, Friday night out with Malea started with her complaining of not having anything to wear out. So, I took her to a thrift shop, I personally shop at, to get an outfit. We walked out of there with two pair of jeans and a pair of boots, $60 worth. We proceeded to TJMaxx in…

Today is Christmas, a holiday that was my favorite! Today would be about everyone spending time together, making plans for the new year coming up. But not today, today I slept the day away, partly because I’m sick and partly because of my depression. My life choices have always been questionable, but I’m not dead…

I have thought about my relationships with men, why it’s so easy, why I understand them more than women. I grew up with my dad and his buddies like Scruffy. My mom didn’t do much or if she did, I wasn’t invited. Dad was always home, always working on something. I was never bored with…

I am reaching out hoping to make amends, to rebuild a relationship without Matt being the subject. That didn’t happen, it’s like justifying my actions, when Matt has never justified his. His actions are more acceptable because he was there first. It’s funny how people can point out your faults, but are blind to their…

There are so many out there begging to “find the one” or “true love”. I‘ve mentioned before, who says there’s only one for each of us? As years go by, we all change in different ways. Dave and I changed where we couldn’t make it work, same with Matt. There are so many people we…

I did, still doing the same for Matt, providing insight on his situation, provide resourceful advice, point out the red flags. In my way, I still am with Trey by allowing him to figure it out on his own. He’s only 18, but he should have grown up two years ago when he decided his…

Dave encouraged me to go back to school, knowing I’d wanted to but didn’t have the money to do so. We did, as long as I kept my full time job, which worked out…for me. Like I said, he would encourage the shit of out you but you piss him off, you are the worst…

People ghost because they have something to hide, they don’t want to accept their behavior, they want to erase us completely to not feel guilty. They ghost you to deny your existence, if you don’t exist, it didn’t happen. That’s how I’ve always seen it. I have emailed, reached out through LinkedIn, tried in ways…